20 days from today I'll be banded.
I have been working so long towards this goal, and now that it's actually going to happen, I'm getting nervous.
I'm not scared of the surgery.
I'm not scared of the process.
I'm not scared of the work it's going to take.
I'm scared that this is my last chance.
I mean... I've tried everything else and it didn't last...
What if this doesn't work either?
What will I do then?
I've always knew surgery was an option...I always knew I could always resort to it if I couldn't do it on my own.
If this doesn't work..... I'm out of options.
I guess I could always be the Jolly Fat Lady of our town.
I could play Mrs. Clause at the Christmas fair.
I suppose I could make the lovely fat people clothes with horizontal stripes and BIG RED flowers on the front work for me.
I would find an assortment of Moo Moo's to wear.
But that isn't really what I had in mind for myself.
I'm sure this will work.
No... really! kinda.
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9 years ago
You'll be great. And keep blogging, it makes you accountable.
ReplyDeleteAlthough the Mrs. Claus role will suffer, just imagine what 10/31/2010 is going to be like for you! How exciting.
We're here for you. And I seriously doubt you're considered the jolly fat lady of your town. Probably just the jolly lady!
ReplyDeleteGet your ducks in a row before surgery (as I'm sure you are). I didn't realize before my recent surgery how disabled I'd be for a while.
Don't get nervous waiting (I know, easier said than done). It'll be ok.
I am right there right now...I will be scheduling my surgery next week, I hope, and i keep thinking...what will make this attempt different from every other attempt? Hopefully a surgically placed band that isn't removable!
ReplyDeleteHey i can understand your feelings. i have my gastric band surgery one week after your at Ehrlich Bariatrics. Me also exited about that..best of luck to both of us..
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